Friday, March 25, 2011

am i a sucky friend?

life is so much less complicated, dramatic, chaotic
but so much more lonely, sad, and gray
as a hermit.


oh, to know which is the better...


i dont know what i do to make my friends feel this way
and i dont know how to fix it.
"i know you dont want me there"
"actions speak"
"i feel like its my fault."


what did i do???????
i dont mean to make them feel
unwanted
unloved
unappreciated
un.
they are some of the best people on the planet,
and i love them oh so much
and i always want to be around them, with them
laughing, telling stories, drinking tea,
making fun of each other.


i dont understand why they feel so unloved.
i dont try to ignore them,
or act like i dont care
or act like i dont want to be around them
it brings me to the inevitable question
am i a sucky friend?????????
=(

7 comments:

haze said...

ohh.. you're not a sucky friend, honey. i think the problem is in them... but it's also nice to talk to them :)

loves!

bbonnieblue said...

no you are not a sucky friend...I know this sounds like a Mom or Gram but hormones are raging at your age and your friends are raging too. Just stay sweet pea and know who you are and be the best you can be. Hormones are not a cop out or excuse - they are real...forever. Nite!

7upkels said...

i don't know you but i don't think you're a sucky friend. i think the best thing is to talk, because when i think i or my friends are being sucky, it's okay because we talk about it and we realize we all kind of have bad days (or even weeks :)

but i know what you mean. hermit life is so uncomplicated, but so not worth it.

sweet pea. said...

thanks guys <33

Becca said...

I don't think you need to get too hard on yourself about what "you're doing." People go through funks and sometimes people blame other people, or appear as if they're blaming other people and you just have to let it run it's course.

sweet pea. said...

thanks for the support, becca

Becca said...

You're welcome:)