Wednesday, February 29, 2012

tell me yours, ill tell you mine

i dont think its right to trade secrets
i feel secrets are something
you share with whom you wish
when you wish
if you so wish.

or not.

Wednesday, February 15, 2012

Valentines Day

this is how mine went:
very very very very different from last years.

the girls completely ignored the guys on monday.
i slept for about an hour and a half because i was preparing for the day, so i was thinking id be running on straight caffeine all day. forgot to make coffee, and had to go tutoring and then straight to school, so no coffee. sad face =(
then i got to school, walked in, and as i was standing there rummaging through my binder for something, i was approached with "sweetpea? this is for you" and was presented A VENTI STARBUCKS CUP!!!!! it was like a dream come true, since i was thinking about coffee all morning and didnt manage to get it.
theeeeen, as part of the girls, and our conspiracy, i secretly gave stuff to the guys (or just one guy (; ) all day long. he loved all his stuff. he was one happy guy. teeheehee. then we (all girls) sang for them in the middle of class. the guys seemed so happy, and it looked like they felt very loved, appreciated, and special. hopefully, we made up fpr monday.
THEN the guys passed out starbucks, chocolates, and roses to all the girls. and then sang for us. my my my, i was very impressed. oh, and they were all dressed sooooo nice.
very seriously, every week brings me more and more reasons to fall in love with bible school again and again and again, and i thank the Lord im here. i love it. i truly think we all really really enjoyed our touesday the fourteenth of february very much, despite the fact that a lot of us are single.
so my valentines day was simply magnificent. how was yours??

Sunday, February 05, 2012


vizzy tagged me
7 random things, tag pepes.

1) i do not like saying "random" things about myself. i like specific questions.

2) my teddy bear and cow were thrown away by a meaniehead guy =( i now sleep with a blue sheep named moe, whom i won at a party.

3) i do not shop online. im not entirely sure why. maybe its because i need specifics.

4) i enjoy people watching. very much.

5) i think about tattoos all the time, even though i highly doubt ill ever get one.

6) im falling in love with my new home, and the people im beginning to accept as family. its strange.

7) i love taking long walks. i need to do it more often.

now people.
i tag:

Friday, February 03, 2012


i love it here
i love my new home
i love my new family
sure, we dont always get along
but isnt that the beauty of a family?
you dont have to like each other.
you only have to love each other.
i love the classes
even though they can get boring
i love the activities,
even though theyre exhausting.
i am waaaay out of my comfort zone
a lot of the time
and yet i love it.

ive been doing so well
not even thinking of you
remembering you only once in a while
and even then for only a minute or two.
but then
theres a kid who sits around me
and he smells really good
but he smells like you
and you dont know
he doesnt know
cant possibly have a clue
what that does.
i sit in class, and i breathe the air
and the smell of you,
i mean him,
fills my nostrils
which fills my mind
with nostalgic memories
a few things that i had forgotten
even existed in my memories.
i have something to tell you,
and something to ask you
and i hope you take no offense.
you have a piece of my heart
quite a large piece, actually
and you took it, and you have it.
im gonna need that back, please.
you see, you need to understand
i will let you go.
i may not forget you, ever,
but my heart will stop reminiscing you.
i long to talk to you at times,
but i think we've made it clear
even without saying anything.
this silence between us
is companionable.
and im ok with it.
you dont rule my life,
God does.
and you dont have my heart anymore.
God does.
He owns it

i love my new family,
my support group,
my holder uppers.
my companions.
they will help me.
ill get over you.