the girls completely ignored the guys on monday. i slept for about an hour and a half because i was preparing for the day, so i was thinking id be running on straight caffeine all day. forgot to make coffee, and had to go tutoring and then straight to school, so no coffee. sad face =( then i got to school, walked in, and as i was standing there rummaging through my binder for something, i was approached with "sweetpea? this is for you" and was presented A VENTI STARBUCKS CUP!!!!! it was like a dream come true, since i was thinking about coffee all morning and didnt manage to get it. theeeeen, as part of the girls, and our conspiracy, i secretly gave stuff to the guys (or just one guy (; ) all day long. he loved all his stuff. he was one happy guy. teeheehee. then we (all girls) sang for them in the middle of class. the guys seemed so happy, and it looked like they felt very loved, appreciated, and special. hopefully, we made up fpr monday.
THEN the guys passed out starbucks, chocolates, and roses to all the girls. and then sang for us. my my my, i was very impressed. oh, and they were all dressed sooooo nice.
very seriously, every week brings me more and more reasons to fall in love with bible school again and again and again, and i thank the Lord im here. i love it. i truly think we all really really enjoyed our touesday the fourteenth of february very much, despite the fact that a lot of us are single.
so my valentines day was simply magnificent. how was yours??
i love it here i love my new home i love my new family sure, we dont always get along but isnt that the beauty of a family? you dont have to like each other. you only have to love each other. i love the classes even though they can get boring i love the activities, even though theyre exhausting. i am waaaay out of my comfort zone a lot of the time and yet i love it.
... ive been doing so well not even thinking of you remembering you only once in a while and even then for only a minute or two. but then theres a kid who sits around me and he smells really good but he smells like you and you dont know he doesnt know cant possibly have a clue what that does. i sit in class, and i breathe the air and the smell of you, i mean him, fills my nostrils which fills my mind with nostalgic memories a few things that i had forgotten even existed in my memories. i have something to tell you, and something to ask you and i hope you take no offense. you have a piece of my heart quite a large piece, actually and you took it, and you have it. im gonna need that back, please. you see, you need to understand i will let you go. i may not forget you, ever, but my heart will stop reminiscing you. i long to talk to you at times, but i think we've made it clear even without saying anything. this silence between us is companionable. and im ok with it. you dont rule my life, God does. and you dont have my heart anymore. God does. He owns it ...
i love my new family, my support group, my holder uppers. my companions. they will help me. ill get over you. completely.