Thursday, December 09, 2010

wish

sometimes, i wish i could sleep for days on end.
sometimes, i wish i couldn't sleep.
sometimes, i wish i wasn't so sensitive.
sometimes, i wish that i could be insensitive.
sometimes, i decide that i'm not sensitive enough.
often, i wish i had more willpower.
sometimes, i wish i listened more.
sometimes, i wish i was able to not listen at all.
sometimes, i wish i had nothing.
sometimes, i wish i had everything.
sometimes, i wish i had selective emotions.
often, i wish my emotions wouldn't spill over so quickly.
or so easily.
sometimes, i actually wish i was more emotional.
sometimes, i wish i could cry it all out.
sometimes, i wish i couldn't cry.
sometimes, i wish i could write better.
sometimes, i don't.
mostly, i wish my hand would keep up with my mind.
never do i wish i couldn't write.
never do i wish i didn't realize i had a gift for writing.
sometimes, i wish i was more thankful.
sometimes, i wish.
sometimes.....

9 comments:

Becca said...

I think all of these same thoughts too...

sweet pea. said...

=)
least we're not alone..

Mohammed J. said...

sometimes things just happen

and there's always a reason

Dani said...

Sweet pea this is such an excellent illustration of how fickle we all are with how we want ourselves to be. Thanks!

Becca said...

I agree with Dani!

sweet pea. said...

but why does it take soooo long for the reason to show itself??? if it shows itself at all, that is...

well. it shows that i dont think im perfect =P
anytime.

=)

Becca said...

I think patience is one of the biggest things I struggle with--it's hard to be patient. I just have to remember that my timing and God's timing are different.

sweet pea. said...

=D
apparently, we're not alone in anything.

Becca said...

Nope :)