Thursday, December 09, 2010

wish

sometimes, i wish i could sleep for days on end.
sometimes, i wish i couldn't sleep.
sometimes, i wish i wasn't so sensitive.
sometimes, i wish that i could be insensitive.
sometimes, i decide that i'm not sensitive enough.
often, i wish i had more willpower.
sometimes, i wish i listened more.
sometimes, i wish i was able to not listen at all.
sometimes, i wish i had nothing.
sometimes, i wish i had everything.
sometimes, i wish i had selective emotions.
often, i wish my emotions wouldn't spill over so quickly.
or so easily.
sometimes, i actually wish i was more emotional.
sometimes, i wish i could cry it all out.
sometimes, i wish i couldn't cry.
sometimes, i wish i could write better.
sometimes, i don't.
mostly, i wish my hand would keep up with my mind.
never do i wish i couldn't write.
never do i wish i didn't realize i had a gift for writing.
sometimes, i wish i was more thankful.
sometimes, i wish.
sometimes.....

9 comments:

Rebecca said...

I think all of these same thoughts too...

a sweet pea. said...

=)
least we're not alone..

Mohammed J. said...

sometimes things just happen

and there's always a reason

Dani'sfadingmargins said...

Sweet pea this is such an excellent illustration of how fickle we all are with how we want ourselves to be. Thanks!

Rebecca said...

I agree with Dani!

a sweet pea. said...

but why does it take soooo long for the reason to show itself??? if it shows itself at all, that is...

well. it shows that i dont think im perfect =P
anytime.

=)

Rebecca said...

I think patience is one of the biggest things I struggle with--it's hard to be patient. I just have to remember that my timing and God's timing are different.

sweet pea. said...

=D
apparently, we're not alone in anything.

Rebecca said...

Nope :)