bricks

thursday tales

i once had a wall

that i built

for protection.

i built it meticulously

painstakingly

oh so carefully.

brick by brick, i built it

took me long enough

but it kept me safe

so i loved it enough.

i had it for a while

and all through that time,

it protected me

blocked me

guarded me.

then someone came along

and broke it down.

i still cant figure out

if they blew out a gap

or took it apart by bricks

important thing being

my wall no longer stood strong.

at first i didnt mind

they were very careful

and caring

but it didnt last forever

as i  thought it should.

inevitably, i was hurt

still dont know if it was

irrevocable.

i suppose i hope it wasnt

for id love to be that

invincible girl once again.

im still working on rebuilding it

but i cant find the necessary tools to fix it

and im too scared to break it

all the way down

and start anew.

so here i am

with my broken wall

hurt and healing

but also smarter and stronger

and to the next person

who comes along:

watch out

i may be cracked

and slightly broken

but i dont crumble easily

anymore.