yellow

i acquired a yellow nail polish
a few days ago.


i have a feeling my nails
will stay yellow for a long
long
time.


(or at least until they chip badly..)

heart

i really dont know what made me write this
because i have actually been quite happy lately.
but anyway.






Oh heavy heart of mine.
why must you drag me so?
is it too much for you, my heart?
to see me up, and see me go?
Oh, weary heart of mine
why must you be so painful?
whatever have i done to you
to make you so disdainful?
Oh tortured heart of mine
forgive me for tormenting you
you see, its hard to make you happy
when the rest of me is blue
Oh wounded heart of mine
How precious are you, dear, to me
im sorry for allowing them to hurt you
and that i did not set you free
Oh dearest, healing heart of mine
tell me im forgiven
then ill gather you, protect you
and try my best to keep on livin.

getting there

im getting better.

i feel the pull of blogs

tugging on my sleeve

(imaginary sleeve)

i want to go read them all once again.

immerse myself in blogville.

be drenched in words and pictures

names and layouts

poetry, prose, lyric,

contemplations, musings, ramblings

thoughts, plain and simple.

i have a math final on wednesday.

wish me luck =/

im not quite back yet

but im getting there.

<3

yep.

"oh, why is everything so confusing?
maybe im just out of my miiiiind"
- avril lavigne


oh, that girl sums it so so well
in her song im with you




"and this too shall pass"


"it wont last forever."


well thats all good and dandy.
i understand it and accept it
but i just have one (maybe 2) question(s) remaining.
WHEN shall it pass???????
and
HOW LONG will it last???????
aaahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!

accept

i accept,
though i really am very flattered.
half the time, i dont like what i write.
the other half, i like it just enough
but not enough to share it with others (besides you guys)
a lot of the time, i dont even think about what im writing
i just write.
i break my own heart, sometimes.
im glad i have a place to share my writing
because im too afraid to share it
with people i know in person
[only my very close friends have seen
some of the stuff i write from my heart].
once again, i accept.
even if i dont think i deserved it.




ps. i havent been reading my followed blogs lately.
ive been oh so busy. never on the computer.
i feel like a bad follower =(
<3

in which i spew randomness

just a few inadvertent thoughts
floating about the insides of my head:




straightjackets make me uneasy
ive never worn one (*shudder*),
but seeing them on someone,
even in pictures, makes me squirmy


i so very much want to make a difference in someones life.
if i already have, then on i go to differentize another's life.


my feet hurt. so much.
perhaps im too hard on them =/


i dont want to go to school tomorrow
but i must, so i will


i really want to move
away from here,
even though ive become attached
and i love the people


my thoughts are all jumbled up


im so so so tired


i want to write something utterly meaningful


i want to write something new


i finally have some floral clothes
theyre awesome =)
spring is seeping into my closet


i wish i lived where seasons actually existed
one day, i will.


i dont like how ive become.
and its so hard to change =(




im going to bed now
goodnight.

keys to a happy life

• take life as it comes
  preferably one day at a time.
• dont take anything too seriously.
• dont take very much to heart
• forgive easily
• dont look back with contempt
• reminisce
• adore
• get excited over little things
  "i can chew without pain!!! YESSS!!!"
  (^someone who just got braces^)
• dont hold grudges
• let things go.
• have an "its ok" attitude
• smile.
  a lot.
• laugh
  a LOT
  
  =)