Tuesday, April 19, 2011

in which i spew randomness

just a few inadvertent thoughts
floating about the insides of my head:

straightjackets make me uneasy
ive never worn one (*shudder*),
but seeing them on someone,
even in pictures, makes me squirmy

i so very much want to make a difference in someones life.
if i already have, then on i go to differentize another's life.

my feet hurt. so much.
perhaps im too hard on them =/

i dont want to go to school tomorrow
but i must, so i will

i really want to move
away from here,
even though ive become attached
and i love the people

my thoughts are all jumbled up

im so so so tired

i want to write something utterly meaningful

i want to write something new

i finally have some floral clothes
theyre awesome =)
spring is seeping into my closet

i wish i lived where seasons actually existed
one day, i will.

i dont like how ive become.
and its so hard to change =(

im going to bed now


PerfectingmyEmptiness said...

you don't like what you have become, but do you do something to change that? you are what you are because of things you chose, things you did. Sometimes it is nice just to say the first things that crosses your mind, it feels relaxing.
Everything will be ok
I love you

Promising Poets Parking Lot said...


be yourself...
stay blessed.

thanks for the inspirations.

join poets rally today if you are free.

shhh. said...

Very sweet blog, and very lovely thoughts, SusieXXX

mckenzie. said...

you really do inspire me, even with the most frank and blunt of thoughts. x

sweet pea. said...

perfectingmyemptiness. i try to change it, but its hard. we get so used to what we are now that it gets difficult to go back to what we were, even if what we were is better.. everything always becomes ok eventually, so ill keep believing that everything will be ok =)

thanks, promising poets.
and shh, thank you as well.
and you, mckenzie.

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Heather said...

I hope you have sweet dreams sweetpea.
You have made so many differences in people's lives. You know that person you smiled at on the street yesterday, you made their day. Your florals lit up their life more than you could imagine.
You can move anywhere, you can always come back. Don't be afraid.
It's okay to be jumbled. Sometimes, most of the time, there is no order. Our human brains are not used to this categorisation that society puts on them. It's okay to ignore it and just be.

Andy said...

Very thought-provoking.
Thanks for sharing and congrats on the award.

sweet pea. said...

thank you, heather.
and you too, andy.