newsflash

today, i realized why i like being in new/unfamiliar places.

if people dont talk to me,

or i feel left out,

i know its probably because

im a stranger, and they dont know me.

but when im not talked to

and am left out

in a place where i know everyone,

its a bit......

downcasting.

=(

at the moment,

im terrified to go on the trip.

keep me in your prayers.

<3

ps. i hate the new blogger layout.

missions

so um.
missionary trip.
with a group.
to ukraine.
in a little town-almost-city.
for 3-6 months.
excited?
yes.
nervous?
oh yes.


i just need a passport.


but the Lord will take care of me =)

as for here..

slowly, slowly.
they stop including me in things
and forgetting about me.
no the first time, but i still cant help but wonder
.........why??

im okay.
still having a lovely time here at bible school.
but the going gets tough sometimes.
especially at the times when somethings up
and i no have any one to talk to

makes me miss my sister.
i dont tell her everything,
but at least i know she's there
at least i know she'll listen.

i get homesick sometimes
which is funny,
because "home" no longer feels like home.
neither does here.
i dont know where home is.
i have no home =/
...
Heaven is home.

perhaps i shall become a nomad.
live nowhere and everywhere for a while.


ha. that'll be the day.



im having mixed feelings about june.
i want this to end, so i can see where life leads me,
but i so want it not to come to an end
i love it here so much, and all the people.
people i met 3 months ago
and now consider family.
i feel as though im in a different world.

sigh...
God will take care of His own.