my place

and im back
i came back.
i always come back.
this is my place,
the part of the universe where
i am just that sweet pea girl
and where i can openly
express myself.
and the beings who see it
will equal more than just me.

i was thinking.
how this world is so cruel
so so so unfair.
and yet
we are required to respect it.
and we still love it
and i still hope
that someday, somehow
something will be fair.
again.

i dont know
when ill be back
but i always am
i always come back.
<.3

lovehate

how you do this is baffling.

i talk to you, i dont talk to you.

i havent talked to you in almost a year.

you saw me, surprised me.

i talked to you. for quite long.

i let you know my situation.

you UNDERSTOOD.

we talked.

it was nice.

i really enjoy conversing with you.

but

you still give me butterflies

how you do this....is baffling.

2013

happy new year, people.
when i get around to it,
i shall make some kind of list
and post it here.
till then, i might post something else.
maybe not.

i love you all =)

if

if you werent you. you just wouldnt be, well, YOU

a little off

forgive me if im distant lately
i cant help it, though.
ive so much on my mind
but i cant share it with any
so it just sits on my brain
hangs out and marinates
and takes up much of my thoughts

im sorry im not as talkative as usual
if i look like im not listening
if i act like i dont care.

do  wait, please.
please have patience
dont give up on me.
dont walk away.
do not leave me.
i'll come back; i always do
it just takes a bit of time, is all.

i apologize for being somewhere
and not here

but sometimes,
theres this tiny ray of hope

and it sits in your heart
lighting it up, ever so softly

and making things okay.

why

why does everything have to cost money

why does life have to be so difficult

why does everything have to suck

why do i think too much

why cant i do anything i want

why do i feel like i cant do anything right

why
why
why

why?