work. i've gotta love it.

i had to wash all these

on saturday

and thats not even it.

there was MORE

for saturday

just sleeping off a breakdown...

its you. not me.

i didnt change,
your opinion of me did.


and believe me
that is enough to change anyone
in your own eyes.


i didnt change,
your expectations of me did.


and frankly,
thats enough to have anyone transform
right before your very eyes.


i didnt change,
your assumptions of me did.


and really
thats enough to alter anyone
in the eye of the beholder.


my thoughts havent changed.
i do not think differently.
and you wouldnt know.
for you never knew what i was thinking
in the first place.




and change
is almost
always

ever so

slight

really though, why not?

i can write exquisitely.
i am able to place words in their spots and have them weave in and out of each other, so that they paint an elaborate picture in your mind.
i am fascinated with words, and i know how to use them.
i could write immaculate pieces if i put myself to it.


so honestly, why don't i?
because quite frankly, it feels almost fake.
and fake is something i want not to be.
ever.


when the time is right,
when the time comes,
i will write.
perfectly.
flawlessly.
impeccably.
but not yet.
not yet.

everyone

everyone likes to feel appreciated sometimes.
everyone.

a bit of sunshine for those missing it

 i own none of these. i found them.

 on various websites.

happy sunshine to all who are suffering from the winter blues!!
<3

for good

because i can
and because i havent updated.
25 words:






tomorrow, ill go.
back to where it started.
i will listen to our music on the way there.
then, ill let go of those memories.