pink

my cheeks are so pink
naturally.
so pink, that i dont even have a use for blush
not that i use it anyway..

on love day

soooo.
valentines day is only a few (3!!!!!) days away.
and i do not think i could be more excited.
well actually, i could. bit it would be difficult to get to that point.
point being, I AM SO SO SO EXCITED!!!!


i have a date.
=)
yayyy.
my first valentines date ever.
one of my good friends asked me if id be her valentine
of course, i said yes.
she then informed me that i was going to be taken on a date. to a sushi restaurant. . sushi. SUSHI!! i love sushi =D (not all of it though, because i despise fish. but california rolls are just plain delicious. and they have other ones like veggie rolls, cream cheese rolls, avocado rolls......)
the restaurant is in the downtownish part of the next city over from mine. they have a few plazas there, and its very pretty
me and her, and 2 more of our good friends (one of whom is my valentine), are gonna get all dressed up and stuff, and go fill our tummies with sushi. yummmm. and then we are planning on walking around and taking pictures, and then we are going to have ice cream for dessert, from one of the many ice cream shops.
i got a present for my valentine. its an adorable little teddy bear holding a heart. he is soo cute, and i think she will love him.


what are you doing for the big v day?


oh, and one more thing.
im a single lady
but
one of my friends that i recently met
asked me to be his valentine
im allowed to be more than one person's valentine.... right??
i said id love to be =D,
and asked him if he wants to be mine.
so
this year, i have my first guy valentine ever!!!
its so so so so soooooo exciting!!
<3 tons of love to you all.
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 <3

click here
and go go go.
=)


be blessed.

looking vs seeing

what do you see when you look at me?
when you look into my eyes of clear blue
do you see joy, or sadness, or anger,
and do any of them seem true?
what do you see when you look at me?
when my eyes go from blue to silvery gray
are they dark as the sky is at nighttime?
or are they, perhaps, bright like the day?
what do you see when you look at me?
when my face is scrunched up with laughter or smiles
do they appear genuine, or a genuine effort?
do you notice the grief thats been there a while?
what do you see when you look at me?
when my eyes fill to the brim with tears
do you see me a blubbering child of 4?
do i look old beyond my years?
what do you see when you look at me?
when you peer in the windows of my soul
do i appear shattered and broken
or do you perceive me as a whole?
what do you see when you look at me?
when i'm dead-beat as a human can be
do you see me trapped in my own emotions?
do i look desperate to be set free?
what do you see when you look at me?
when i'm so bubbly i could practically burst
do i give off the vibe that i'll take on the world?
can you find, through the bubbles, the heart that hurts?
what do you see when you look at me?
when you ask how i've truly been
when i answer "just totally perfect"
do you notice the pain etched within?
what do you see when you look at me?
when i'm light as the lightest of hearts
do i seem like i've got it together?
can you tell that i'm falling apart?
what do you see when you look at me?
what shows up inside my eyes?
do you expect everything you see there?
does anything take you by surprise?


what matters most in the end, you see
what matters the most in the end to me
its not being what is expected to be.
when asked "what do you see when you look at me?"
its those who can honestly see me.
the true me.

a little late for saturday

i have two weeks to go.

darn you

why why why why
whyyyyy did you tell me???
i didnt want to know.
i dont want to know.
i liked being oblivious
to things like this.


it makes me act unnatural.
im no longer fully myself around you.
its just awkward being near you.
............


shouldnt have told me


that you like me
in that way

tear

i have nineteen followers.
nineteen.
one nine.
thats ALOT to me.
sniffle.
=)
<3