something or other.

i am tired.

so tired

of my friends

constantly

putting themselves down.

i hate it

when they talk

like no one

cares about them

because frankly,

i care.

it annoys me

to no end

when they say things

such as

"youre only my friend

out of pity"

or

"its ok, you didnt want

me there anyways."

i dont say that,

they do.

why?

i don't understand.

if i honestly

didnt want to

be friends with them,

they'd know.

it grates on my nerves

when my friends

complain to me

expecting pity.

i don't do pity parties.

if you're looking for

compassion

or empathy,

come to me.

i'll listen

tirelessly, i hope

and try to understand

exactly how you're

feeling.

and i'll empathize.

something i'm good at.

but

if you're looking

for someone

to say things like

"poor you, poor you.

its everyone else's fault"

well then,

you have come

to the wrong place.

because like i said,

i don't

throw pity parties.

eye for an eye

ear for an ear

marinate

on that

will you,

dearest friends?

progress?

so i think i'm getting better.

i think.

but i'm not entirely sure.

it still hurts like ridiculousness.

and it burns  randomly.

and it itches.

and it starts throbbing with pain if i use the leg for too long.

and i took some pills for the first time in.....

goodness. a few months at least.

i couldn't take the pain =(

other than that, though, i think i'm doing alright.

its been 3 days.

i cant really tell you if its getting better or worse.

ha.

and take a wild guess at which genius

agreed to double shift.

for 2 days in a row

(monday and tuesday)

covering for people.

if you guessed me,

you are CORRECT.

oh well.

i do have something i want to post.

like something i actually wrote.

but its on paper.

and i must transfer it to the computer.

and at the moment, i cannot.

soooo,

ill try to do it later today.

if i can.

till later?

cheers.